I'm going to try to do this at least daily so that I can get in the habit of writing more consistently.
I'm
experiencing movement today. I started off extremely slowly and just
reached a bit of a crescendo of sorts, and I'm going to ride the wave
until I beach myself.
I've been confronted by disturbing things
that are happening regarding my existence as a women, what my rights
are, and a seemingly popular view that I don't matter. That even today,
with all the modern technology and things that we have available, we
have yet to evolve to try to respect each other. That there are still
people that actively want to to reduce my status to that of less that
human, because I have genitalia on the inside. Apparently this creates
some sort of animosity in those with it on the outside. Maybe because
its hidden. Maybe because its "mysterious" or just unknown. But
ultimately the outside wants to control the inside. And that's
horrifying.
In addition to this re-emergence of adversity, I'm more inspired than ever to actively resist this push.
I
am not a feminist. I am an equalist. I want the same thing that
everyone else wants. Happiness, a place to have it, and people to have
it with, safely.
I'm going to continue to empower myself by not
allowing someone to tell me that I am anything but a useful human
being. That I matter because I exist. That I may not matter to
everyone, but that I would be missed if I weren't around. I'm going to
do this by making connections. I'm going to grow. I'm going to become
more. I'm going to speak up with I'm being pushed around (after I've
listened and carefully chosen the words I would use) and not sit "idly
by". I'm not going to hysterically rant (thanks outside genitalia
people for making that stereotype), I'm going to keep on trucking. I'm
going to watch. I'm going to live.
I'm going to channel
beautiful, amazing women in my life. I'm going to find the attributes I
love in them and see where they might live in me. I'm going to give
them a place to grow, I'm going to foster that growth and birth it out
in the world through my actions. That's what I call birth control,
controlling where your energy goes and where you will let it blossom.
I'm going. I'm on a path. I'm embracing movement.
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